I was thinking about all the things that I do on a daily basis that I need repentece for, and in that thought realized I never realy ask for forgivness.
Day in and day out I go through the motions of life all the while never recognizing the things that seperate me from God. Most lilely all the things that keep me from growing. I’m quite calous to my own actions and the effects they have on me.
Honestly I think I’ve pushed away from looking at the things that cause hardness of heart in order to keep my sanity. The thought is that if I pay attention to all my sins than all I see are my sins, and that becomes my focus. “Why repent when I’m just going to do it again.”
A potters clay can’t be molded when it’s dry and stiff. Yet sanity seems more acceptable when I don’t pay attention.
How is it that I can have a heart of repentence if I’m not willing to accept the things that I do. When I come face to face with Jesus and he asked me about my sins how can I repent if I don’t care about weather or not I’ve sinned. I think the result will that there is no forgivness.
So my question is, where is the motivation and drive to bag my sin and bring it befor God, rather than leave it in a closet with the rest of my sin. I guess it’s like throwing trash on the floor. Eventually it will accumulate and it will be impossable to miss, and it will become apparent to every one that I litter where ever I wish and care nothing about the consiquences.
But having repentence is having freedom. It’s more than just having a clean floor it’s streaching your arms out with nothing to hide. At that point it becomes a matter of having a clean soul and that will reflect in my life, because I wear my feelings on my shoulder.
So if my motivation is to be free than my thought is to recognize my actions. Take action and take control. There is a re-ocuring theme that has been rolling around in my head. (and maybe it’s just me) Weak mind and weak willed, that is our generation. But it’s not true, it’s just a deception, because we are usually tricked into thinking that we are weak when we are actually strong.
So with strong mind and a strong will I will own my trash and take it before God asking him to get ride of it, because he said he would.